Tuesday, October 5, 2010

The Long Goodbye!

That's how it feels. I leave the day after tomorrow. It has suddenly crept up on me. I am getting more and more emotional as I think about it. In a way I just wish it was Friday afternoon so that I can be happily ensconced in France with a glass of wine and all of "this" behind me.

I know that it great that my husband and I have this great adventure to look forward too, I know it is going to be great fun and we will get a lot of satisfaction out of it, but right this minute I am truly asking myself "why the hell am I moving to France and leaving behind my daughter, son and granddaughter?!".

Can you tell I am getting a little stressed? I am dreading the goodbyes. My daughter and I were in tears when we said goodbye when they left the house in France in the summer and I was going to be seeing them in little over a week! I just keep telling myself we will be back at Christmas (and blocking the fact that I will have to go through all over again then!).
If I am honest it is my granddaughter I am going to miss most. Watching her grow has been an absolute delight so I will treasure the close bond we have formed and will do everything in my power to ensure that bond continues in the years to come, no matter how many miles between us. Thank goodness for Skype.

Of course I will also miss my daughter but she is grown and we have been apart before, but we have become close friends over the last few years, especially since she became a wife and mother. We do spend a lot of time together so that is going to be a big wrench also.
And youngest son ....although I understand he is setting out on his new adventure an that he would have been going his own way anyway. Still it is not going to be painless.


Maggie May said...

If you talk to everyone on Skype (particularly your granddaughter) she really will remember you. Thats what I used to do with my granddaughters and they were familiar with us on holidays and when they came back to live here from Japan it made things easier.
Hoping that the move goes well.
Lovely photos.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Nora said...

It sounds like you hadn't quite thought it through. You were caught up in the romance of it, but not in the reality. Now comes the real test. I wish you the best of luck.

softinthehead said...

Maggie thanks = I am sure it will be fine, I have never been good at goodbyes:)

Nora, I think you hit the nail on the head, but I am a very positive person and I am sure I will be fine, once I get over this hurdle.

dND said...

Welcome to France! All I can say is, be ready for a few downs, life here can be tough but it can also be really enjoyable. You ave the winter to go through first and grey days do make it seem much harder but after the rain there is always the sun and summer won't be long.

Video links, Skype or MSN will keep you a real person to those overseas and I'm sure you will be a very desirable holiday destination which will give you quality time with those you love.

Wishing you all the best,
Deborah x

softinthehead said...

Thanks ladies for all your supportive comments. Every once in a while the enormity of what we have done hits me. But I am managing to keep busy :) Thank goodness for Skype!!